So I’m FINALLY back at my office desk! My partner was using this room as a bedroom over the holidays – I can’t really recall why. I think it was because he stayed up until the early morn playing video games and watching T.V. shows.
I’ve been feeling really good lately. I feel more capable and I’m keeping myself healthy – I let myself indulge over Christmas just like any normal person – I make sure I am well prepared with good food so my blood sugar doesn’t drop too low and I end up craving an entire block of chocolate.
I saw a saying the other day that read: “if you’re not hungry enough to eat an apple, you’re just bored,” and I laughed. So true!
So I’m not entirely sure if this year is going to be different or not, but I like knowing that in general I am in control of me. I’m in control of what goes into my body, how I look after it, and most importantly – how I choose to see the world and change my experience of it.
It’s so interesting that the mind remembers all the bad things that have happened to us so that next time we steer clear of those situations. For example, because I’ve had so many panic attacks and anxious situations at work, my body immediately goes into alert every time I walk into the building.
I’ve been back 3 times already this year and I’d have to say I’m somewhat enjoying the process of re-training my mind to think differently. Although I’d have to say that the break over Christmas really did me the world of good to relax and be able to go into 2015 with an open heart. I’ve also got a lot of tools at my disposal for when things get tough – and for that I am so grateful.
2014 may have been a hard year, but I gained so much that it’s hard to say I hated it.
Anyway, I promised myself less time wasting this year, so I’d better go find something creative to do!