Anxiety

The Battle Cry Of The Procrastinator

Good Evening.

I’m thinking of putting my “planning” hat on. It’s going to have a lot of spider webs on it, and most likely covered in about an inch of dust – it may not even fit me anymore! I know it’s around here somewhere, I’ll just have to dig it out.

Time to make an action plan. Time to set some goals. Time to put in the effort. Time to “do” rather than “wait”.

I’m feeling mildly motivated.

Just mildly, but at least that’s something.

t often find that I “give myself a break” a lot because of my anxiety. Often just going to work is a huge accomplishment, so I’ll set aside a bunch of days as my “reward” – some time where I can chill and not have to deal with anxiety. However I’ve noticed that those “chill-out-days” go on for much longer than I anticipate, I become lazy and complacent, and then it becomes much, MUCH harder to get back into the swing of things. Usually, because my days at work are so spaced out, it goes:

WORK          LAZY DAY        RECOVERY LAZY DAY          OKAY I’M FEELING BETTER DAY         WORK         LAZY DAY

You get the idea. Pretty soon it is all just work and lazy days; no fun, no projects being completed, no buckling down, not even any socialising.

I’ve been too easy on myself – like the parent who has given up on making their child complete homework.

My anxiety did teach me that I had to be easier on myself, but this is getting out of hand.

 

We’ll see what happens. I’m know to talk the talk, but walking the walk is a little difficult.

Anyway, I’m off to kick my butt and get started on some small things I really need to get done. I’m tempted to say, “I’ll start tomorrow!” but we all know that’s the battle cry of the procrastinator!

 

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