I need your help!
On the way home tonight after picking my partner up from work, he said something that was rather hurtful.
“You could finally live your life!”
We were having a discussion about anxiety and medication after I told him a story regarding a young woman, anxiety medication and a car accident/insurance claim.
Things got heated rather quickly.
My points were:
a) I am doing okay without it – sure, my way of recovering is a little slower, but I’m hoping the benefits will be long term, and;
b) I don’t want my body to become addicted to or rely on a substance to balance it out. I’ve heard that for some people missing one dose can mess things up royally.
He came back with “that’s what they said at the course I went on, but think about how much your life would improve, not on the negative.”
My feelings were a little bruised at this stage. Was everything I had been through, everything I had done, been for naught? I walked around the shopping center not really knowing how to feel.
My usual reaction to this type of talk is, “yeah, well, you’ll see! I can do anything! Nothing’s going to stop me and I’ll make you eat your words” but it’s a very internal monologue. I am glad I had that running through my head; it was a great way to avoid going straight for the chocolate. We were even in the chocolate isle and I thought, “nope, nope, none, I must prevail!”
So I’m a little bit torn.
If you are someone out there who does take medication for their mental health, I would like to know your experiences, how you do on the tablets, and if it has helped the quality of your life by great leaps and bounds.
Please comment below 🙂